New Here!! And finally I can post.

by Crisis of Conscience 44 Replies latest jw friends

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  Crisis of Conscience

  I agree that I've felt like petitebrunette in saying - I wish I could say that I was the type of Bible reader that had unanswered questions, and awakenings to the real truth, but basically I always thought it was "the Truth" but I just wasn't living it.

  WOW! WOW! I can't believe all the responses I've gotten. I never realized it would feel this good to have someone just listen. I can't remember what all the posts said, but i know they all translate to, "It's alright CoC. We understand and feel your pain."

  I hope I can be as encouraging to others as you all have been. That's the one thing I have always tried to be in being a JW. I love people!! And I have many good, good friends that are like family. But when things don't add up I figured out that it is to dificult to say that I'll just go with it because I have friends, because that doesn't make sense.

  Thanks again and definitely WELCOME to all the new ones!
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  Mattieu

  Hi CoC,

  Welcome, I can relate to so many aspects of your post, you will be suprised as to how many of us are/have struggled with the same feelings.

  Mattieu....
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  tjlibre

  CoC you have a PM.
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  Crisis of Conscience

  Wow! How quickly time passes. I’ve been here a year already. It’s hard to believe.

  Time to review the year a little.

  So here are some of my accomplishments.

  I stopped serving as a regular pioneer.

  I stopped serving as a ministerial servant.

  I read Crisis of Conscience.

  I no longer believe the FDS is appointed by Jehovah nor is being used by him.

  I no longer fear the question of to whom will I go to, or for that matter, to where.

  I no longer go out in service.

  I’ve informed my immediate family about my new feelings/beliefs.

  I've cut way back on virtually all WBTS-considered spiritual activity.

  These are among some of the things that come to mind.

  But I also want to take the time to thank those that have offered help and encouragement, both directly and indirectly.

  And I hope I’ve been able to do the same. I don’t intend on going anywhere, for now. I enjoy this place a lot. Thanks to all.

  CoC
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  Crisis of Conscience

  Oh yea, I forgot to mention a major accomplishment. I helped one person who was already somewhat awake, to exit!! (And I may have managed to confuse his wife and get her to think. )

  That's more than I ever brought into the org!

  CoC