You have gone through many changes this year, I have been reading you and nugget's posts since finding this site & I can relate, as I am not going (1st time for me too, my life is unrecognizable from this time last year)
I am hoping to feel a release when tuesday is over, I had a JW friend text me to see if I am going (said sorry, but no), got my first invite tucked under my door (didn't have the guts to knock) & threw it away, and my mom reminded me what time the East Side Cong is having theirs (I gave no response to, my decision to leave the borg has hurt her so much I just dont know what to say anymore).
I will go to work as usual, go for my after-work run as usual, and have a nice cold tenants with my bf- it will be a great tuesday.
Best wishes to you both,
CHG