Terry you are by far one of the more honest posters here. For that, I salute you.
I now take the position that we cannot know anything about God which is verifiable.
Of course born again Christians are going to tell you otherwise.
What is positive about a preoccupation with God (in my view) is that it represents a purity of thought and practice as an ideal which is embodied
in a benevolent Being concerned about the welfare of lesser creatures.
The pity about Religion is that it fractures God into a dichotomy of For and Against orthodoxies splitting us up into camps ready to tear apart
Critical thinking is only rational when it brings about choices that build, improve and encourage a long life well-lived.
If Atheists, agnostics and believers could focus on the upbuilding actions we humans can engage in to bring about a benevolent society we'd all be better off.
Let's face it, it is a more "natural" impulse to blame, scapegoat and criticize the "other" than to chip in and build something positive with the "enemy".
What you experienced in your contact with the God is either wonderful for you and your family and others or it isn't. You are in a position to know that, I'm not. I'm sure you are sincere.
You and I are more alike in some ways than we are different.
The question is: are we effective?
I don't think I am. I want to question things carved in stone and get people to consider being able to RE-consider the "given" in their life the way I have. If they don't, that's okay too.
You, on the other hand, have your own methodology. Is it effective? I don't know.
I try to base my views on SOMETHING rather than a feeling. If that is foolish I'll experience an empty and value-less result and I'll just have to live with that.
Peace unto you, Perry. That's the best I can wish.