Paul,
Like you, I still believe in the Bible and in Jehovah and his son. I am no longer a witness and have not been for about three years now. I have drawn this conclusion, and it may sound harsh, but...I am NOT special. I do NOT deserve everlasting life. People have been dying since the beginning of man's creation, I am NO different. I am NOT special, I do NOT get a special, "You may pass the dreaded death sentence card". I love Jehovah, but I do not expect him to cater to my needs for life. If he chooses to give it, I will accept. Life is a gift, gifts cannot be earned. The very nature of a gift is that it cannot be earned, because.....it's a gift, of love, from the heart of the giver.
Yes, I have accepted that I will take my place in death alongside all those that have passed before me. What can I do with my life now? Love my God Jehovah and love my neighbor. That was Jesus' message. There are no greater things that you can do with your life than these two things. Perhaps Jehovah will hold out that gift of life to you....really there is nothing any of us can do about it. We are all at His mercy.
Some may argue, "I don't subscribe to this belief in Jehovah or that he holds the power of life and death". Those that argue this point will have the same fate awaiting them too, there is no argument after death.