Hi Pineapple,
I just want to say Welcome and I love you too.
I am not a JW basher. I still love my brothers and sisters in the Truth. 2 years ago I was kicked out because I am gay. I miss it very much. It is home for me. I am looking for those that still love Jehovahs and his Orginization but for whatever reason (like being gay) are not aloud back in. PLEASE DONT BASH ME. I love you all.
I typically don't respond just read and enjoy the topics, but I do feel similar to you and felt you needed encouragement. I love Jehovah with all my heart and his son. I am greatful to him for my life and everything I have in my life. I miss organization in general too, feeling part of the group, and having immense support. I have been out for only about 8 months or so and I do feel lonley at times. I do not like the control of the Watchtower and how it controls its members. I do know Jehovah loves you and youare still one of his people. The friends stopped talking to me because I did not go to the hall and that was fine because that is what they feel is right. I am not bitter to them as that is all they know and love many and will always.
You go thru a confusion state as we are in JW mode. I had friends prior to me being in the truth for 14 years and they were good friends and loved me unconditional. One of them I have been activitely associating with.
There are good people out here who ill love you unconditionally.... If you ever need someone to talk to PM me. I wish you peace and happiness in all you do.
M