Mr. Flipper, good evening!
My experience was similar to the apostle Pauls, but in reverse.
Instead of seeing the light, like on the "Road to Damauscus" (wasn't that a Bing Crosby and Bob Hope movie?) I was hit over the head by a CO to see the light.
For five years after being forced out by him, I still believed it was the truth, wandering around the wilderness of despair thinking JG didn't want me. Was I feeling the same as some of the Gay-JW's I knew, feeling this was the truth, but JG didn't want us? Pathetic thinking, wasn't it?
My doubts only came about five years later. Then they became strong finally after 7-8 years, with further bad treament from JW family.
Was my basis for doubts on the JW's for wrong doctrines, like so many honorable people here? No.
It was the extreme lack of love shown to us over a period of years.
Only when coming to this site did I realize they were wrong on blood, 1914, etc...etc...
Amazing uh?! Thirteen years from leaving the org did my wife and me realize this wasn't the truth after all.
Which brings up my next point. Why do we here reffer to oursleves as Apostates? The conatation is not true (Apostate = unhealthful teaching) and can scare aware searching JW's and interested studies looking for answers. They see apostate and are trained to run away screaming like the knights in Monty Python's 'Holy Grail' "Retreat! Retreat!" Can we change the name if necessary to something different like 'truth seekers'? jmho
You all have a nice weekend. We plan on riding horses till we drop.
PS. And treating our very sick and loyal cat 'Chico'. Poor guy is on his last legs and just wants to be held and have his ears scratched.