Overall my fade is going very well, but yesterday it really hit me that certain "milestones" are going to be more difficult than others.
I have basically gotten down to one meeting a week, wth no field service.
This despite the dreaded admonition "One week without field service makes one weak! " (PUKE)
As I was on the way to the meeting yesterday, I was informed that I was assigned to read the WT. My mood instantly changed, as noticed by my wife when I yelled "AW BALLS" when I received the call. I thought it would be easier to just go ahead and do the reading and mark one more thing on my agenda to address at a later time. Overall, I have been left alone, which is a great feeling. However, we are so low on men at the congregation, that they are desperate for help. I havent turned in a time slip for months, barely attend the meetings, and here I am getting "privileges" LOL That comes from my previous reputation and level of responsibility at this point I am sure.
Anyway, the most difficult part for me was when i was reading the article, and my conscience started BOTHERING me for allowing myself to read this from the platform! There was one paragraph in particular that spoke of Jesus blasting the Pharasees in his day, calling them hypocrites and whitewashed graves. I could hear my voice raise in anger as I was reading, because i wanted to comment and say "YES, and this situation exists right here in our time as well, especially by the men who produce this magazine!!!!"
I guess I am finding it harder to sit there and stomach that stuff The WT study is the worst for me now, because I dissect every little point and the study is SO BORING. I really wish they would pare that thing down to 1/2 hour so that I could get out of there faster at this point.