I first stepped into a KH as a very young child when my mother started to study with JWs. Being raised in the organization has given me memorized response awareness, which means that I would measure everything I encountered in my life according to the dictates of the WTBTS. Needless to say, it made me sick. I refused eldership twice knowing the repercussions that role would have on me. Happified, now I've been under the radar as inactive for several years now and got my family out too. Sincerely Yours, Alligator Wisdom (aka Brother Not Exerting Vigorously)