You are in a quandary because you can clearly see that being a JW is not "the truth" but you still have a desire to know God.
Here are some interesting biblical truths regarding "the truth".
John 8:31-37 (New International Version)
The Children of Abraham 31 To the Jews who had believed him, Jesus said, "If you hold to my teaching, you are really my disciples. 32 Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free."
Do JWs hold to the teachings of Jesus? Are they really free or just slaves of the WT?
33 They answered him, "We are Abraham's descendants and have never been slaves of anyone. How can you say that we shall be set free?"
34 Jesus replied, "I tell you the truth, everyone who sins is a slave to sin.
Are JWs slaves to sin or are they actually freed from the power of it?
35 Now a slave has no permanent place in the family, but a son belongs to it forever. 36 So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed. 37 I know you are Abraham's descendants. Yet you are ready to kill me, because you have no room for my word.
Are JWs really sons of God or have the WT actually killed Jesus, claiming He never rose from the dead bodily but exists only in spirit as Michael in heaven?
You have three choices.
1. Return to the WT fold and ignore the gaping holes between the God of the bible and the god of the WT.
2. Leave the WT fold and regard everything to do with God to be wrong because the WT were wrong.
3. Leave the WT fold and regard everything the WT taught you to do with God to be wrong and let God teach you.
If you choose option 3, contrary to the WT teaching, the bible says, first and foremost you do not need the instruction of any man but God Himself.
John 14:26 (New International Version)
26 But the Counselor, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you.
John 16:13 (New International Version)
13 But when he, the Spirit of truth, comes, he will guide you into all truth. He will not speak on his own; he will speak only what he hears, and he will tell you what is yet to come.
1 Corinthians 2:10 (New International Version)
10 but God has revealed it to us by his Spirit.
The Spirit searches all things, even the deep things of God.
All the best,