I did have feelings like you, i always thought i would never be good enough for a man in the organization, mainly because i wasnt that spiritual myself, i never wanted to pioneer, i wanted a career, i wanted a full time job and i wanted money.
I did date a few guys, i even got engaged to one and he dumped me the night before ur wedding saying he wasnt spiritually ready for a wife. I had my heartbroken because of people thinking they also werent worthy enough.
I now am very happy, im engaged to a lovely man and we have a fab life together, we are getting married in November of this year.
Life is definitly better out of the JW organization.