This sums up my life experience!!
The deep inner feeling! Profoundly seated in ones core soul!
The all giving, all rejection, not good enough aura by ones closest to you or those you did it for!
And yes it does make you feel much worse the more you give!
So the Bible aint necessarily my favoured ethos for giving being all it's cracked up to be!
It's awful when surrounded by those questioning your motives for all the unconditional giving you have input into whatever circumstance you have been in!
It's why I could so easily walk out of humanity this second, (save distanced one/s I sense kin with but am terminally cut from) and wouldn't blink! Nobody else would either but that's besides the point!
I can only vaguely speculate that those humans who've gone even further, who repeatedly put their lives on the line and lost so much afterwards, have overwhelming feelings along those lines? And others have no clue and think somehow they had different motives or whateva!!
Oooo - core feeling!