One Sunday last fall, I read the bible online since I couldn't attend the meeting. I was careful to read only the KJV. The problem was I read a verse that was different from what I remembered fro the NWT. That led to further research and led to "apostate" websites. Suddenly all of the doubts and misgivings I'd suppressed over the years began to click. It was like a drug. I kept reading and printed out info. When I arrived home, I jumped on the computer in the guise of doing research for college. I was so upset. I couldn't wait to speak to with someone about the bible. I had so many questions? But who to speak with? The WTS had taught me the not to trust the clergy. There were two Christians who I knew read the bible regularly. I pounced on one of them with my questions and the story fell out of my mouth. She was shocked! I was such a good JW! "What happened?" I said nothing happened. I had not broken any of God's laws. I just lost faith in the WTS.
Did anyone else discuss their doubts with an outsider or did you keep your doubts to yourself.