I felt like crumpet -- My heart dropped when I read your post. It is so hard to understand how mothers can do something like this. I'm so glad that you left and broke the cycle for future generations. Even if you can't have your mother's company, I hope you find comfort in knowing that you will not do to your kids what your mother has done to you.
But I know from experience how hard it is to be shunned by your parents. I have felt anything from anger to sadness. It is so terrible what this cult does to families! This just shouldn't happen. Nothing should be able to seperate mothers from her children! I know time will heal -- but in the mean time, know that you aren't alone in your pain. There are so many here who can share it with you. Sending lots of hugs.
Renee