You all have been such a great source of validation to me for the reasons I left the cult. Yes.. I do call it a cult now.. I didnt before coming here. Much healing has taken place in my personal life with this recognition. I find though, that with so much mental stimulation regarding the past, I find myself in a place I am not happy to be in. I am much to sensitive right now to deal with everything here. Obviously I haven't reached the stage of healing that so many have here. I thought I had.
For my own safety right now, I need a break, and will take one. I am so drawn to come here, feeling for the first time in my life I am understood. But, there is so much in me not resolved.. I have learned this since being here. It is truly a good thing. I am not sorry for a minute I found this site. I do find myself at this point spiraling into a sad depression.. angry.. sad.. reminiscing a little to much.. and not able to leave this site behind once I sign off.
Anyhow.. lots of love to you all.. your all lovely people.. I will be back soon.
Tata for now!