About 3 years I decided enough of being "content" with the fact that I had a decent job, if I was going to work, i wanted to do something that I loved.
I've always wanted to get into medicine. But being that I was 23, married, owned a home, worked full time and never went to college, it wasn't going to work out for me to just enter into college and then proceed onto medical school. Plus, I was a JW, who would do that?
Well, I finally got the guts to enroll into the community college into their Associate Registered Nurse program. The whole thing would take 3-4 years and I would end up graduating with my Associates degree and with a license to be a registered nurse. It was something I wanted to do, and since the school was in the same town as my job, my boss was willing to work with me and give me flex hours so that I could attend a class in the middle of the work day- etc. I didn't have any classes on meeting nights and as long as i stuck with the schedule I could handle school, work and spiritual things. I should mention that at this time I wasn't handling my spirtual things anyways, but hey the time was always there to work on it-now I just had to be more "strict" since my time would be more used up with school.
I had no problem in school and at work. I was making the deans list and very very proud of the fact that I passed Anatomy and Physiology at the top of the class, that my English Professor said I was an awesome write and had so much potential, etc. etc. etc. Work was great, my boss was so impressed that I could juggle things.
My spiritual growth was still stagnent as it had always been. Except now the "blame" was because of school and work. Funny how that morphed. After a year I realized that I was putting all my energy into school and nothing into the organization and felt guilty. I shouldn't do this for the next 3 years because what if armageddon comes and I'm in the middle of mid-terms? i was doing so well at school though! and it was only 3 years! But the "guilt" got the best of me and reluctantly I quit school. And no my service time did not improve, my personal study did not progress- spritually, nothing changed. I just now had free time to watch TV-
I've since been promoted at work and enjoy my new responsiblities and love the company I work for, but to this day I can't watch a medical show without getting a pang in my heart. I want to work in that field! I could have been done by now.
I had so much potential. Right now with a new baby and a new home, I just can't juggle going back to school right now.
My goal someday is to go back and not only become a nurse, but to become a Midwife-
I just wanted to share my story because I'm feeling melancholy about the things I missed out because of the stupid JW "reasoning".