This may not be a forever goodbye, but its certainly a goodbye to this stage of my life because i need to make real progress instead of just talking about it. I may post the odd post on a rare occasion, but its not part of my plan really.
I posted a topic called the truth, which was originally going to be my farewell to this forum. I think with my current situation, having a son and having a family that requires my attention it would be wise for me to move on in some shape or form, because i dont want the negativity of the Watchtower Society to rub off on my son and give him any of the grief and worries i had when i was growing up. I am aiming for something that at the moment i can't reach, total and complete recovery from the things that have happened and the ability to put them in a certain place, where they are useful but not damaging.
I've been seriously considering doing this for a while, last week i removed myself as Admin from my personal Website i run with friends and became just a member because i need to really get my real life going, otherwise i risk using the internet as an escape and forgetting my responsibilities.
Simon made a comment today that really made me think and i wondered if i could achieve it "in my opinion everyone should aim to become an ex-ex jehovahs witness"
Of course i wont forget the experiences i've had, but neither will i let them rule my life any forever. Instead i intend to continue getting the help i need from new places and in new ways, create real friendships (yes with you also) and pull it all together. I might even attend the odd apostafest when life and time and situation allows it in the future.
Feel Free to email me at karlwhitfield13 AT hotmail.com (without spaces and with an @ not AT). Some of you have been amazing friends and the rest have been good friends.
I never realised the decision would come this suddenly but today it sunk in just what me and megan have, and i will do everything necessary to make things right for us all. I understand really what PurpleSofa, Arthur and others are doing now. Whatever happens, Megan will still reply and thank you all and so will i with her in the appropriate threads. We will also make sure your not all out of the picture about him.
I did leave last year and earlier this year, and when i came back JWD meant something else and it played a different role, who knows what the future holds.