Ok so here goes...Ive Fallen for a guy, who seems perfect for me, everything ive ever wanted in a man, kind, sensitive, caring and reliable. Only problem is, he is not a JW and i sort of am, Sort of meaning, i was brought up in the truth i have gone through rebelious stages and just passed them off as wanting to experience, i nearly married a JW but the night before the wedding he called it off and said he wasnt ready (we had sleot with each other beforehand, so he prob didnt see the point in going ahead anymore! got what he had wanted!) Since this i have tended to shy away from men, in the truth and out of.
But this one guy i met hes 10 years older than me and seems to genuinely care, i told him about my being a witness ( i attend meetings as and when to keep my family happy and so i can keep in association with old friends, i do not go for myself or Jehovah, i have not prayed in a very long time) and he wasnt bothered by the fact at first, he decided to research what it would mean for in the future and was worried most of all about christmas and birthdays, not celebrating them with him and his family, also how would our children be raised? what about blood transfusions if they ever or either of us needed one?
I lost my mum 6 years ago and the main reason i have kept going is for the fear of missing out on seeing her again. Is this wrong? I would marry this guy tommorow if he asked me, but my family or friends from the congregation dont know about him. I dont want to lose the rest of my family and friends over this, but this could be my chance at some amount of hapiness in my life.
Any comments or advice welcome!!