My sincere sympathy to you and your family. I understand your loss.
My Mom (a JW) died at 43 yrs old of cancer in 1970. We then were comforted that soon the end was coming and she would be resurrected soon. Of course, the end was coming by 1975. During the next 10 years about , we (my siblings) had to re-evaluate everything. We five grown kids all left the WT (4 of us had been Bethelites),and including our Dad. I believe now, she has been in a better place all these years, heaven. That we all came out of the WT around the same time in our different ways is amazing, & I sometimes wonder could Mom have somehow inspired us in that re-evaluation.