Over the last few months I have been training three different men for backup position of my job.
We are alone in my car all day.
As a JW, I remember one time, needing to go to another congo in a different town to work on a part at an assembly. I was to ride with the brother doing the part. He was probably at least 30+ years older than me. My bibile study teacher had to ride with us as It was not appropriate for he and I to be alone in car together. I was newly baptised and newly divorced.....maybe just maybe I would find this older man very attractive in an hours time riding with him and we might plunge into lustful sinful sex.
At my brothers funeral. I stayed at my mothers house......along with another couple that came from another state. The four of us there. My mother and the wife were going to the store. Which left me and the husband to be alone at the house. I was staying in the basement, they were staying on the main floor. He had not planned to go until he knew I was going to be alone in the house with him. He wound up going with the two women.
I almost took it personally as I am single.
The wife, my mother and I spoke about it.....and the wife said it was just to be safe. It is a protection..blah blah blah.
I found myself uncomfortable alone with a brother while in the organization. Not because of myself but the implication that just because of being alone wtih the opposite sex.......seemed to always mean SEX. But I was so conscience of the fact that we are not supposed to be alone together......that I was questioning my own feelings and desires.......Maybe I really do want to boink this man cuz I have the chance!!!
The farther away from that thinking, I can enjoy friendships with men without the constant threat of the sex act happening.
The three men I trained alone in my car.......I never once worried that anyone I worked with thought something was going on with me and these guys.........I never once felt like I had to protect myself or worry about the way it looked to others.
So, I think the constant worry of it amongst the witnesses breeds thinking or feelings that arent even there.
Has anyone else experianced this?