Lily- don't be sorry for inquiring at all. I know perfectly well that I am trying to numb myself for a bit. But it is not really over my mom. It just exasterbates the problem that people always "walk out when you REALLY need them to walk in." My daughter wrote that to me once. The other gal...she is 14.
It is so easier for people to take the path of least resistance when it comes to having to deal with people who have families and things to handle that I do. As with you, I have family that I guess just feel that they don't need to take care of my mom. there are 7 of us and two of us struggle with her. I cant even stand her and I am stuck with her. Fact is they are right. I am stronger. He is stronger. (my brother) but it would seem appropriate that they realize one cannot deal with this 24/7. It also is a hard thing to find anyone friends or lovers that are strong enough to deal with the fact there are a lot of things a person with this in live that are not normal nor easy. It takes having friends and lovers that are very giiving and sometimes don't take what you say very serious. People that know when it is ok to laugh and then at times just shut up and kiss you. Hold you and let you be comforted a bit.
It makes for an interesting life. Yes she is mannic and bipolar and...did not get it treated till I was 15. So I had already moved out at 14. I never really looked back and now I am no longer a JW. But she is. Or she likes to fashion herself as one. It makes it a bit difficult to help someone you have no attachment to, and the bit you do is negative. My brother left home early too, but he has this mean ass sarcasm way of handling everything. I really love to go steal his beer. So he really does hide a bit too much in the bottle. I swear he went on a diet and was going to cut down the beer. So he drank a slimfast...then a beer. LMAO. I just love him. I just want to choke him, I cant stand him and well I just love him.
Family what can you say?