So, I was happy and celebrating because of getting good grades in my courses, well I get a call from my mom. At first the phone call was just "hi, how are you" then she laid into me saying my "problem" (meaning my divorce) was because I was putting my education first and not Jah. She goes on to tell me that the "talk today" was about people murmuring as Israelites and bad things happened to them. She said that they wanted more and more and that I was doing the same thing in trying to get a career getting more money… and blah, blah, blah.
She tells me, “Gina, if you would just come back to Jah, then ALL of your needs will be met. Sure, you won’t have a nice house of home, but you’ll always have food on the table and a cover over your head”. I then replied, what kind of cover, a “tent”? (k, I was already getting mad at her so I’m sure I could have said that in a nicer way… but I was mad) She says, “I wouldn’t mind if I had to live in a tent if it means keeping Jah first”… YIKES!!! I’m SICK of it already!!!!!
I’ve told her over and over that I didn’t want to talk about my divorce OR religion, her words “I have to say what’s on my mind.”
These are the times I think about just going ahead and disassociating myself so I won’t get these stupid calls. I don’t get much of her support anyway. And when I do get her “support” it’s because she feels she can “preach” to me during that time.
I love my parents, but I’m wondering if it’s time to cut all ties. For half of the time, we don’t get into a discussion. Most of the time it’s because I can ignore her little cramming in a bit of preaching now and again. Just this time, she hit a raw nerve telling me that my “situation” was all my fault because I wasn’t serving Jah.
Oh well, I’m off to a movie to forget about this crap. Just had to rant a bit.