The suffering was pretty bad. I was indeed a "loyal" witness and was kicked out when I most needed help and guidance. I was thrown out on my own and became a fairly angry young man with a reduced sense of societal obligation.
apropos of nothing, I wonder how much violence on the earth is generated by religions that fail to meet spiritual needs of the people?
In any case, their failure to be the spiritual shepherds they claimed themselves to be, the lie, is what tended to bind my mind to fighting them for a while. I also argued extensively against the elusive e-watchman. But then I guess I found other things to occupy my time. Its hard when they occupy such a large portion of your life and time and then suddenly you have to fill that void with energy and positive things. As it were, the demon is cast out and unless the house of our mind is refilled with other things, it can be repossessed and made worse with things LIKE the original demon. The obsession with destroying the WT can take over a person's life even worse than the WT did.
In any case, building a new life is hard. But you can manage; forgive the anger in others, it may take them some time to heal.