Hi and welcome. Sorry about all the pain you're going through... it's good and bad to be here to share it; good because we here have all experienced it; bad that so many go through it. Still, it's not the worst thing that could happen to us, right? Hey, nobody invaded my country this year, I love my hubby and my job....
This is from my mum's last communication with me, probably for life:
If you remember, several weeks before we came over to attend your wedding, I rang and told you that if it became evident that you were not living up to the promise that you would restore yourself and maintain meeting attendance you would lose me too.
I replied with many things (I think it's very recent in my topic history), but mostly just by telling her I love her, and that I've forgiven her. My reply probably touched them so deeply that they couldn't keep it and will tell themselves lies for the rest of their lives; I rejected them, I'm cruel, I don't care.... I don't think I'll ever again see them or hear from any of my parents, four siblings, and many friends. Sometimes I'm hurt, sometimes I despise them, but most of the time I just accept it and get on with appreciating whatever beauty is in my day. Most importantly; I no longer miss them, because they never really loved me. It was entirely conditional on my making them feel good about their faith.
It's not real love they take away from us.