I am not afraid but dont like having anything to do with them. I just found out that a elder that sat in on several elders meetings that I had with them a year and a half ago dealing with my divorce and child abuse that I suffered through with an uncle of mine which the elders here look up (they confronted him and he fessed up to it right in front of me but they said that it was too long ago and it happened before he was baptised, but they tell me with him sitting there that he could never serve as an elder again, sad thing though is that my dad who acted so upset because it was his brother can not go out and do things with him and act like nothing ever happened!!) too was moving in next door to a house that I own and am getting ready to sell!!
I about went balistic!! because my husband (divorced him and then turned around and remarried him ) was trying to talk me into staying and living in this house. I told him no way was I going to live next door to this elder ever!! you see I did some things when my husband and I were not together that would get me disfellowshiped for and my dad found these things out and as he says he went to the elders esp. this one and told him all about it. His duty he said because if he didnt then he was just as guilty as me then!! I was so mad that he did this to me and he did this to me before ever comming to me first and talking with me about it, it really hurt my dad and my relationship. This elder hasnt confronted me about this matter but I know its in the back of his mind!!
I decided a year ago never to set foot in a KH again, only listed to the memorial over my mother-in-laws speaker phone because she listens to the meetings in here home out of respect for her. I dont listen to the meetings with her and I, my husband or 2 kids have anything to do with the meetings anymore. Its like a breath of fresh air not to have to go to anymore meetings or out in that god awful field service!! Sad though I have to dig out a dress, I have to go to a funeral on Friday because a good work friends son was killed in a head on collision with a semi truck a few nights ago. And guess what! its going to be in a church and I am going and dont care what anyone thinks!! feels good to be free from the guilt that the WTS put us through all of our lives!!