Just found out my mom's cancer is worse than she thought...widespread--colon, lungs, bone...so she said I can come down and see her if I want to (7 hours away), and my help would be appreciated if I could manage it. Of course I can manage it. She's my mom.
But I'm DFed, and she's a JW, living with her JW neice's family. They'll let me and my 5-year old daughter stay in their camper. Aaaagh....So much time wasted, so many years of distance, seperated by a stinking religion...but at least I am being allowed to say goodbye...isn't that nice? If anyone (other than my mother) witnesses to me while I'm down there I may lose it and strangle them...but probably not. I'll just choke it back and deal later.
I didn't have anyone else to tell right now. So thanks for being here.