(sorry for hijacking this thread...)
Merfi, I started this thread to point out the similarity in attitude of JW's & Muslims. JW's aren't unique in being dogmatic and in being willing and able to "kill" someone in a spiritual sense. There was an article I still haven't been able to find, it was posted on this board, in which the WTS said, (paraphrased) 'They (Christian JW's) were limited in their punishment by secular laws...they could not put people to death for 'apostasy' - here !'
So, thank you for telling us what happened to you, it's exactly what shows the 'how & why' the Org. does not show the true "Love" they are supposed to have. Sure, not everyone of the elders or the rank & file are that bad. But, being on these boards and reading 1,000's of similar 'lapses' of love & kindness -- shows that the treatment you received is the 'norm', not an 'exception to the rule.'
More than doctrinal issues, the 'lack of love' and the hypocrisy I saw from the leaders in the KH from the podium and in real life, is what finally opened my eyes.
My JW mother dying...because she could not accept a blood transfusion...sealed the deal.
I am MORE than bitter about that ! So, don't beat yourself up. You will go thru all sorts of 'stages', just like people do going thru grief.
You'll be OK.
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