First doubts - 1969, Winter, in the freezing basement Libraray at KH in Clinton, Okla. Trying to make sense of the name Jehovah in the NWT/NT.
Research: - all through 1970 to 1980. Saw 1975, Ray Franz issue, 144,000, etc. Still Elder, still kind of trying to show up once a month or so.
Catharsis - Circuit Assembly summer of 1979. Went in on a Saturday Morning, smelled those greasy hamurgers cooking, and heard one of my former friends (Mike Merritt for those who know Oklahoma City) holding for on "Apostacy" during the morning service talks. Looked around just like the previous posters who did an assembly walkout, and just knew it. I did not belong here anymore.
Turned 180 and got in my apostate 1977 Corvette and made tire tracks for the Interstate Highway. Last meeting ever.
There was plenty of time to let them disfellowship me later that next spring.