How long did it take for the fog to lift?

by Honesty 19 Replies latest jw friends

  • hallelujah

    7 years of attending for me and it's surprising how the lectures not to look at 'apostate' literature become insidiously ingrained.

    Only thanks to all of the good souls out there who posted scan's of ORIGINAL Bible & Tract society publications - and hungrily searched the web for all of the hundreds and hundreds and hundreds of watchtower literature and Bible and Tract society literature, did I finally see the truth.

    When it clicked that Charles Taze Russell was a mason then I knew I had to warn my JW friends that Jehovah's organisation is into the occult - numerology and pyramidology. When I realised that the witnesses say that we are not son's of God but now grandchildren, through the 'anointed brothers', I thought this goes against the words of Jesus that we all know so well, that we may be children of our Father which is in heaven.

    But Charles Russell while misguided is light reading compared to the vitriol of Joseph Rutherford and the now anonymous lecturing of the Governing Body.

    But when we leave the witnesses for what we don't like, we ought to retain the dignity to retain our own principles which drew us there in the first place.

    Just because the Governing Body continue with hallucinations of Charles Russell - enforcing them, and enforcing lies of Joseph Rutherford, such as the '144,000 anointed brother's of Christ', doesn't mean that I am going to reject everything that the watchtower said just because they said it.

    As a man who was sexually abused as a child by an older male neighbour, and later catastrophically duped into a Vipassana meditation cult which demanded complete surrender to the teacher and left me out of my mind and spaced out, only to be 'befriended' by another male and deceived into engaging in homosexual behaviour, I can say that we should never ever forget the principles which attracted us to join the Jehovah's witnesses in teh first place.

    From catastrophic personal experience I believe that oral and anal sex is degrading to both participants. I also believe it is degrading to human dignity to so deal with the male seminal fluid which has the power to give human life. We should no more take these male fluid's within our digestive tracts than we would eat female menstrual fluids. It is to me the same thing. The Governing Body said it and I agree with them on this, but not by submission or surrender to their views, but simply because I am in agreement with those views.

    So now even though I know that the Governing Body lies to us about the anointed, I still believe personally that there is no such thing as a homosexual identity, and that encouraging this identification only cements certain damaging behaviours which are later regretted.

    Daniel Taylor

  • Wolfgirl

    Not too long, to be honest. I am married to a man who is really good at asking thought-provoking questions. So I was doubting a lot about the religion fairly quickly. That was helped along by the fact that I received quite a jolt and was shown just how much JWs truly care for each other before I was even df'd. It wasn't until a year and a half later that my df'd aunt found me, and I learned the truth about "the truth." As for the rest of life, I've always been an independent thinker. :)

  • ferret

    5 years for me

  • snarf

    I have been away from the meetings for 1 1/2 years now, and I still debate in my head all the time on their views.

  • freedomlover

    when I started researching the 607 thing and finally came up with the time line and realized it was BS then I immediately had a 36 hour sleepless spell where I literally felt something lift from me and my mind opened for me. It was pretty quick for me but I still proceeded cautiously. I was *afraid* of apostate material but I looked anyway. I went to the library shortly after that and started reading about cults. I think it's just me. I hate to be in a state of indecision. I need to decide something and then move on.

  • lonelysheep

    About 3 months. When I realized just how bad I'd been duped, I kept my feelings to myself until I felt strong enough to let go of the wts and everyone I knew in the kh's.

  • fullofdoubtnow

    It started to lift for me when I was still attending meetings. I wouldn't say its totally lifted yet, but I can see a lot more clearly now.

  • greendawn

    I realised that things were not right after a year and became inactive, because I could not see any cordiality or recognition in the congo despite being a good dub. I said there is no point in trying to bring others in this adverse environment.

    When the internet came out all uncertainties were cleared up, from then on I was sure the JWs offered nothing good to the world which would be better off without them. Just another devious contra spiritual daughter of Babylon.

  • Ellie

    I've not been to a meeting in roughly 18 months, its starting to lift slowly now, it just depends though, some days I actually think it is the truth, and others, like today, I'm a proud apostate.

  • TopHat

    It only took an instant, where I read how the WTS treated the Malawi JWs cmpared to the Mexico JWs all because of GREED to keep their property in Mexico. Until then I was trying to fade because I could see and feel someting was not right.

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