When I left the JW's I was like a spring that had sprung loose. I went wild! I've still battled with drugs/alcohol. I celebrate holidays life a kid. My sisters and I were laughing about how we are living our childhood thru our kids. My daughter, and all my neices and nephews have b-day parties out the ass. Not to mention halloween,etc parties.
What has helped me the most is being here, and on a couple other sites. I'me starting to let my guard down. I've had a problem letting people know the real me!
Just take your time!