it is curious how similar our lives have been Bridgette, as far as the way we got in and the way we got out,
i am currently solitary myself, the coven was a starting point which my coworker introduced me to, she knew before i did but she never pushed it on me,
i had been reading carlos castaneda at the time and i remember reading something to the effect that the teacher comes when the student is ready, and around that time she and i would have some interesting conversations about life, and one day she asked me to go to her sisters for they were getting together for the full moon, she said i would have a good time,
after i left miami i became solitary. . . .
hi Claudia
in answer to your question as to what they think, this is my stance,
i am pagan, what i mean by that is that it is a lifestyle and not a religion for me,
technically anyone not christian can be labeled a pagan,
i personally don't subscribe to judeo-christian beliefs, nor any type of religious organization for that matter,
i believe jesus walked around but his teachings were severily warped over time, by the church
i have read up on different paths, and taken what i like from what i have read, as is usually the case with most solitaries,
because it is not a religion, there are no rules to follow other than
do what you will, harm no one,
that is the code, it is quite simple and common sense dictates my life,
i am solely responsible to the voice of my conscience, and responsible for my own actions,
i believe that karma goes a long way and i am a firm believer that what i put out is what i get back,
i don't need a book or a committee to give me guidelines or rules to live by,
i also believe that we are not born sinners, that is a label that we get pinned with, by christ based religions, this is a conclusion that i have come to on my own and i could expand on this if you like. . .
because i have chosen to walk away from the borg, i am on a need to know basis with my folks, if they can distance themselves from me because they feel i am a bad association and need to obey man made laws, then so be it, i can return the favor, in order to make their life easier
this is the way i see things for as cold as it may sound,
if they can choose to follow a herd of old geezers and let these goons dictate their life and cause a division between us, that is their choice and it is they who need to live by it, not i
i respect their decision and i don't impoose my beliefs on them
unfortunately they don't share that common respect with me,
it is impossible to have a conversation with them without the borg coming up, that is their life they know nothing outside of it,
i think it is sad and pathetic that adults can give up their existence to a printing company and let such dictate their life,
when i first got out i tried to make some type of ammends with them and be the good son, and maintain a relationship,
it didn't get far, if i did not make the effort they did not either,
8 years have elapsed and there have been stretches of time where we have not spoken at all,
(we went through a period of 2 years without speaking at one point)
it sucks, but that is life on their terms,
through the years i have decided that it is best to not speak to them as much, for they can be very draining,
in the next life hopefully we will sort it out. . . .
my mom knows my nature and she knows that i like books, she knows i like to read, but above all i question everything, i believe that she may know, because of some of the conversations we have had, secretly i know she believes i am doing what is right for me though she will not say it and like any witness mom she harbors the hope that i will return, though i have made it pefectly clear that pigs have a beter chance of growing wings,
edited because i felt like editing. . . wasn;t happy with the first draft it wasn't saying what i wanted to convey
and why am i justifying this?
peace
dc
