It all hinged on a single premise, "The Watchtower is the One True Religion and is giving me what I need"
As long as we believed that, we were good to go. As soon as you slip that out of your head, the rest just tumbles into obvious lunacy.
I had a therapist tell me that there is nothing that screws up your mind more than believing a lie to be the truth, when you find out it isn't...it has a very adverse effect on your brain. It takes a while to recover from this and a lot of hard work to undo the damage. What I had to learn to do for the first time in my life was to believe in myself and KNOW my OWN truth!!! It's a process that we all have to work through...first we feel violated, then angry, etc. the list goes on...but the important thing to do is make up your mind to always listen to your inner voice and question anything that doesn't sound right to us. We have this within us, but so many times fail to use it!!!