I can remember before I left 4 years ago feeling totally burned out. I had spent 5 years caring for my elderly parents and they had passed away. The end had not come though my parents were of the 1914 group (born in 1907 + 1912) and I felt discouraged and exhausted. I had lost my 15 year old son to death and just wanted to be dead too to stop the pain. Then I knew I had to leave, that the end was not coming and when I did it was like opening the door to pure sun shine. No more negative talk to listen to about this old world. No more depressing topics to mull over.
That is when the depression began to end when I got out. I was numb for probably 6 months, but the sun was shining on me and gradually I came to life. Now at 55 I look forward to each day, and have a positive attitude about the future.
There is a JW lady who doesn't know me but brings me literature sometimes. She is always mouning and growning over how this world is so bad and how she hates it and awaits the end to come. I just smile and tell her wow what a depressing way to look at life, that I'm glad I don't feel that way.
At the KH when I used to go everyone was so depressed, so unhappy. Over worked, too many meetings too many JW demands on them. Everyone eyes were dead and depressed, just like mine used to be. I am so thankful to be out of it all.