It's all out. I spoke with my mother, told her everything, my doubts, my fears, my sins. It came rushing out.
My mother is devastated. But, inside I am free and even though I am suffering right now, I will come out and eventually see the light. I already see a little bit.
I wish I hadn't held back all these years what I really thought. It would have been much less painful. But, she accepts my decision.
An elder is coming over right now. This upon request of my mother. I will stand up for what I believe in and refute what I don't. Today, I become a man and an individual. Today, begins my life.
Thank you all for your help and your experiences. In ways you can't imagine, this forum helped me so much, and helped me get to this point.
I never wished to shread my mom's heart, and it's gut-wrenching. But, today I can for the first time in a long time, breath. I will keep you posted.
Your fellow emancipated human,
Knowsnothing.
