I'm so conflicted

Joyal

Hi Everyone,

After "lurking" here for about a year I've finally gotten to the point where I felt the need to register. That is a big step for me. I also got up the nerve to buy and read Crisis of Conscience. What an eye-opening week I've had. I feel like my entire world is upside down. I have spent almost 30 years as a witness and I feel so betrayed. From what I'm reading from all the posts is that what I'm experiencing is "natural" considering the circumstances, but I'm so depressed. I have problems concentrating at work and I'm up all throughout the middle of the night.

I don't expect this to go away over night, but I wish I could somehow speed up the process. In the meantime, I will continue to read the encouraging things I've seen on this site and would like to thank all of you for your words.

Joyal

Purza

Welcome Joyal! Glad you decided to de-lurk. It does take time to deprogram - especially after 30 years. Keep reading here -- it really does help.

Purza

GoingGoingGone

Welcome!

This is a great place to find your footing while leaving the WT. It's scary and difficult, but it's sooooo much better once you've done it.

Enjoy!

GGG

Joyal

Thank you, Purza. I realize I'm not alone when I see the experiences of others.

Loyal

AlmostAtheist

Welcome Joyal!

Yep, you were duped, just like the rest of us! :-(

The good news is, you've figured it out! Now you've got your very own life to live, and it's wonderful! I rejoice for you, and with you!

Look forward to hearing more from you.

Dave

Bumble Bee

Welcome Joyal,

I was a lurker for a long time too!

Glad you decided to join!

BB

slugga

Welcome to the mad house, thats two of us in the last 48 hours. I've been out for yrs and I'm still conflicted. 17 yrs later and still there's this little brother in side telling me "...you are so screwed being on here !"

Matt

Aggggh why do I feel the need to keep putting that bloody devil in my sig?

I'm so conflicted

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