I go back and forth trying to deal with what I've been through... It's funny, because my first post on here was about being disfellowshipped for being a lesbian... and I don't really struggle much with that... after all, it was sort of no big deal to my non-jw family and such.. so i didn't lose blood relatives... but I lost all of my friends when I quit...
I miss them like crazy sometimes, but I don't you know? Like, I don't miss the Jw-isms, in fact I've forgotten most of them.. but I miss hanging out with them when they weren't so stick-up-their-ass-ish. Maybe I'll get to see them again sometime, I dunno.. .but Scoob, it's closure I want as well. LIke, I didn't get to really say "bye" to any of them. I left sooo fast because my stupid conscience turned me in. Arrrgh...