I personally don't think I am as bad as I was when I was 16, but I have been thinking about suicide a lot lately. Like way more than is healthy for any person to think about. I am positive I won't attempt again...but it does bug me I spend so much time thinking about it.
JD sorry no advice, just that thought.
I think that sometimes when we feel out of control the thought of suicide helps us realize we can control one thing --- whether we are alive or not. Then we can move up from there.
Okay one other thought, I think the world is a better place with you in it.