There have been several posts here on depression, and I know many posters here have had to deal with depression. Heck we even have a section for depression related topics. So I wanted to come here for a little advice, opinion on drugs for depression.
First some background:
I know depression runs in my family. I know I have struggled with it before. It was really really bad when I was 16, and that was the first time I attempted suicide. However, after that failed, I managed to pull myself out of it. Call it pep-talk mixed with sick of feeling sorry for myself who the hell knows what else, but I was finally feeling in control again, and I did it by myself and was very proud of that fact. I was also glad no one found out about my attempt as I felt sheepish and stupid about it later. Also knowing I probably would have had to go in for therepy and "talk" if anyone had found out, and I didn't want that.
People (friends and family) have always suspected I get in to little funks, but I am pretty sure none of them know how bad it was, or what I actually tried to do once.
My mom was on prozac. (She was kind enough to annouce once that because I stopped going to meetings she needed it--thus it was my fault she was depressed--thanks ma, that helps a heap!) She quit the prozac. Recently she was on a combination of welbutrin, and some L-something or other. Both for depression. However, she felt the combination made her ill and she was just going to use the L-something or other one on its own.
Again I think it is pretty obvious to my friends and family I am in a funk. I am out of work, just finished school, and found out there have been huge budget cuts in most schools, so no one is really hiring. There have been other things eating my brain, soul, and will to live--but the bulk of it has been work related worries.
I personally don't think I am as bad as I was when I was 16, but I have been thinking about suicide a lot lately. Like way more than is healthy for any person to think about. I am positive I won't attempt again...but it does bug me I spend so much time thinking about it.
Anyway--noticing my slump my mom suggested since she has three bottles of wellbutrin left, that I can have them if I want. I'm not sure how I feel about that. It makes me worry that I might be too dependent on them. And that if I did it once before by myself, why wouldn't I be able to do it again?
So I am just curious...anyone tried any happy pills? Any major side effects? Having it to do over again, would you use them?
Just curious...thanks in advance for any and all responses. I appreciate it.