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  coming out of the woodwork

  by bittersweet in

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  2. friends

  ok....i haven't posted on here in a really long time.

  so, i just had a baby ( a girl after 3 boys, woohoo!!!

  ) a little less than three weeks ago.

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  Thanks for the replies all! No apologies, how the heck are you?? I am very glad hubby doesn't go to meetings. He is a high anxiety kinda fellow, and his main reason for not going back is because he has been gone for so long he is nervous about it. He still plans too, but I am just happy for whatever I can get. He won't make my kids go, and he lets them do what they want. Both my teenagers even have girlfriends who come over all the time, and both of them also have a band and they are allowed to play shows and everything!! I really can't complain about the homefront. Also, my sister is slowly fading and her husband who was an elder stepped down and even grew a beard! Imagine that! Blondie....funny thing about these people dropping by. None of them seemed to care before I had my baby. And none of them brought me a meal. I believe they were just counting their service time and needed someone to bug, so they chose me. I am really beginning to think I should just DA myself, then they would leave me alone. Thanks again for all your congrats. I can't even begin to say how excited I am to have a little girl after all these years! :)
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  1914 ,the Generation that got tossed in the Garbage Can

  by OUTLAW in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  as many of you know i`ve just got back to the board in the last little while..what did i learn yesterday?..the generation of 1914 means nothing..nothing!

  !..back in the day,you could have been disfellowshipped for such a remark..disfellowshipped!

  !..what did you think and how did you feel when you found out the generation of 1914,now means nothing?.....outlaw

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  for me it was the beginning of the end. I didn't have a whole lot of faith before that, but after it pretty much put the nail in the coffin. Got tired of all the lies.
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  coming out of the woodwork

  by bittersweet in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  ok....i haven't posted on here in a really long time.

  so, i just had a baby ( a girl after 3 boys, woohoo!!!

  ) a little less than three weeks ago.

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  ok....I haven't posted on here in a really long time. Hi all. So, I just had a baby ( a girl after 3 boys, woohoo!!! ) a little less than three weeks ago. I haven't been to a meeting in more than five years. My husband hasn't gone in over a year ( but he still believes, unlike myself ). Anyway, it seems if you give birth, it opens the flood gates of visits from witnesses, and I am really starting to get annoyed!! It started the day after I came home from the hospital. It was a Sunday, and an elder ( who I really do not like at all ) and his wife just decided to drop on by. No phone call before hand to see if I was up for visitors. Thankfully I was sleeping with the baby, and my husband answered the door and talked to them. A week later, I am awaked at 11 AM ( baby was up all night and I was trying to catch up on sleep ) by my dog barking furiously. I come out to the kitchen ( in my P.J.'s with my boobs half hanging out ) and see there is someone at my door. Why it was my mother ( a witness of course ) in her Sunday best. I answer the door quite groggy, and she takes one look at me and says "Oh, I guess you're not up for company, eh?" I say "no, most definately not". She tells me she has a car group of people in the car who would like to see me, but I decline the request, and she is off on her merry way. Yesterday I finally get out of the house to go food shopping, and when I get home I am informed that two brothers ( one I don't mind ), an elder and a servant stopped by to see the baby. Okaaaaayyy. I have only a few weeks left of my maternity leave, and I feel as though I have to spend it on alert. I wanted a relaxing ( as relaxing as it can be with a newborn ) few weeks to spend with my little girl, not fending off witnesses. My so called "worldly" friends are polite enough to call first before coming over. I suppose the witnesses figure I either a) wouldn't pick up the phone if they called, or b) I would tell them no, they may not come over. Any way, I just wanted to complain a little a get that off my chest, and I knew you guys would listen and understand. :)
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  Are you a witness because it is the path of least resistance?

  by tfsm in

  1. jw
  2. experiences

  i think most (particularly those with witness parents or family) are witnesses because it is easier to stay than to go.

  what i am wondering is- why would a reasonably educated adult choose to become a witness in the first place?

  my parents got into it when i was about five and i have asked them what the reason was and the answer has varied over the years from "the world is a sick place and we did it for you" to "we were lost and looking for something".

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  I know I stayed a witness for a really long time because for me it was the easiest thing to do. I didn't want to rock the boat. My mom became a witness back in the 70's. We heard all the same stuff, "the world is passing away soon" "don't go to clloege ", blah, blah, blah. I was always jealous that my mom didn't grow up a witness. She was allowed to join after school activities, she could go to her prom, all the things she took away from me. I believe the reason she became a witness was it gave her structure when she was going thru a lot of things with my dad. It told her what was right and what was wrong, she didn't have to figure it out for herself. Obviously a lot of adults become witnesses because they are going thru hard times, and they want to think there's something better in store for them. That's why most [people who are happy in their lives, and jobs, don't become witnesses. That's just my thought though.
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  Memory trapped in a song

  by Nosferatu in

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  2. friends

  i'm listening to an mp3 cd at work today, and the song "driver's seat" by sniff n the tears came on.

  this song immediately triggered a memory.

  it was 3 years ago that my ex left me.

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  I'm not quite sure why, but the Logical song by Supertramp always makes me feel nostalgic and a little sad.
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  Tell me about your "Dedication"

  by ezekiel3 in

  1. jw
  2. experiences

  for jws, there is a two-step process for committing yourself to god.

  before you get baptized in public, you are supposed to privately "dedicate" yourself to god in prayer.. i was a child who knelt in the corner of my room after completing my final "interview" of questions from an elder.

  i tried to be sincere, but i was aware i had no emotional currency (i was only 13, give me a break!).

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  I vaguely remember sitting in my bedroom and trying to figure out exactly what I was supposed to say in my dedication prayer. I always hated praying because I could never think of enough things to say. I remember being on bible studies and being asked to say a prayer and having anxiety attacks about it, lol. But back to the dedication thing, I was 15 and knew it would make my mom happy. I can't even remember the day I got baptised. I know it was sometime in December around Xmas time. As you can see it certainly held a lot of importance in my life!
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  Lawnmowers... what is your oppinion???

  by Elsewhere in

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  2. friends

  it is getting close to time for me to buy a lawnmower.

  when i was growing up and cutting my dad's lawn he always had a self-propelled lawnmower.

  i was very lucky in that i never had to use a push-mower.

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  I can honestly say I have no opinion regarding lawnmowers, but I felt like posting any way. I am obviously bored with too much time on my hands.
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  Donald's Family Secret documentary!!!!

  by mouthy in

  1. watchtower
  2. scandals

  i have just finished watching it.

  so glad donald mentioned it was the jehovah's witnesses- who knew about the abuse & said nothing..... good work donald.....

  i was so sorry to hear what you went through as a youngster...... p.s.

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  I read Donald's book, it was excellent btw ( though heartwrenching ). I didn't know any thing about a program though. Is this something available to those of us in US? I do have Satalite TV. Does anyone know when this might come on again, and what network I may be able to see it on? Thanks in advance!
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  I submit this as a new Kingdom song

  by gitasatsangha in

  1. social
  2. humour

  as per usual with sing praises to jehovah,etc, the music is artfully approprated from someone more skilled.. in this case the dead milkmen's "bitchin camero".

  here we go... "kid publisher" -by gita.

  kid publisher, kid publisher.

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  That was too funny!!! sad and true, but funny nonetheless.
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  My Story.......

  by Jesika in

  1. jw
  2. experiences

  well, i talk about my abuse so much i haven't found the need to post it.

  i guess i will post it now so i can write it once and not have to keep writing it over and over again.

  well, my eariliest memory is of being punished.

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  (((((((jess)))))))