I think you will have days like this.
Honestly,I would rather get hit by a train then get married!
Years ago in my early forties, after getting reinstated the JWs placed me with a few single ladies at the hall. A whole freakin role! They never talked with me or did anything with me. Just watched me! Marked!
Good God Almighty! I had years of enjoying the company of friendship with men all went away! I was left with a seat with a bunch of ladies who did not get asked to date. No men approached them! They had few male friends which were not marriage material.
Out side the JWs, I dated all the time so it was a shock. I suppose it was another reason to get out! Congratulations.
Guys have certain clues they look for in single women. Getting on dating sites help. Anyhow you need to start flirting every place you go just to practice.
Honestly it is a lot of fun flirting when I am in the mood but getting married,no way.