It was hard to find a question in that that is answerable.
You comment: "And the truth is that when you got your gift or anything good that happened in your life, our Yahweh has blessed you out of his love for you" seems is a bit out there. I think it boarders on extreme.
Do you really believe that "anything" that is good is a gift from god???? Really? So, If I don't believe in god, why is my life pretty good? And how about those good Christians who have a pretty crappy life? Is god punishing them?
I really tried to believe in god, I really did. But I just can't.