Pes0210 I am so sorry, that is a heartbreaking story, like etna hubby and I are 54 and we have been out for a few years now and have come to the same conclusions. The witnesses have no idea what the true Gospel of Grace is and the true extent of Gods Love and mercy.
You have been bullied and harshly treated, for Christians the new covenant is a way of life, the true Church is people, cults however, promise much and deliver very little but claim to have to have the answer to all the questions of life and ask you to leave to them to think for you, they completely miss the point of Christian freedom which encourages us to seek the Holy Spirit ourselves and associate with those who feel the same.
There are no deadlines for repentance with God, he sees the heart, if you leave it to men and confess your sins to them knowing full well that they do not have the spirit of Christ, and you know how policies and procedures work with the JW org. it is not suprising the outcome is what you experienced was not comfort or forgiveness but was fear, torment, and certainly not love. Just procedure. The body of elders fear the organisation and they want you to fear it.
As you rightly said God is Love. "There is no fear in Love, but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in Love. We love him because he first loved us." 1John 4 v 18 & 19 NKJ.
I am glad you have not let go of the most important thing that is not 'what we go to' organised religion but ' Who we go to Christ Jesus our Lord, ' he is the only one who can save and forgive us.
Wishing you well in your new life Gods blessings RosePetalxxx