I understand how you feel right now, daringhart... so many of us were simply stunned by the love and compassion that comes from people that are so rigorously slandered by the Organization.
I am so glad that you're here and sticking around. You will learn a lot, you will find support, you may even meet new friends in person! There is no rule saying that we all have to agree on everything - you will find some healthy, and, at times, heated debates on all kinds of subjects. This board is populated by passionate individuals who in some cases are exercising their ability to think critically for the first time.
Again, glad you're here, and can't wait to hear more of your story.
All the best to you in this difficult, scary, and exciting time in your life.