Welcome EN!
You are one of the ones who, when it came time, decided to be intellectually honest with yourself instead of lying to yourself. I think this is a pivotal moment each JW comes to sooner or later.
I, like you, never agreed with the blood policy. I was a teenager when that was introduced to me and I told my parents that life was more important than this policy.
It wasn't until I was an adult that I learned about the child abuse and how much of a problem it really is. There is no way an 'all-loving' god is any part of that crap.
Thank you for taking the time and mustering up the courage to join us. Every voice is important.