Randy I enjoyed reading your history of what happened at Bethel in the late 70's and early 80's. I too wish I could have known what was happening but as an average jw I was told evil apostates were trying to take over the org. Some of the jws back then, the elders and their friends knew more about what was happening, but most of us knew nothing. The area I lived in had its own drama with a KH being " taken over" by apostates and a lot of the cong. disbanding. The wts of course sent in the troops and built a bigger and better KH but it was a real turing point in this area. I believe it was what caused the change in who has the title to the KH's.
I had never read one piece of apostate literature or talked with them, yet I figured it out by myself. Jws showed me themselves who they were. The real turning point for me was the change in the baptismal vows. I knew then this was not God's org. Indeed, I had decided God did not have one org, but accepted all who came to Him .
The biggest challenge I have had was including Jesus Christ . I know that sounds crazy, but jws gave Jesus such a low key presence that I found it hard to pray to Jesus. I was even scolded by one of the xjws ministers b/c I could not do that but it did not feel natural. It took time to remove all the brain washing . I started readig the Bible myself and lets say I am a work in progress.
Thank you for your life of dedication,and caring. Your mom was right. She did dedicate you to God.