A.M. Number, many of us in this forum, including my self, we have been through similar situation. Even I managed to survive my exit, with terrible losses, at the end of the day there is life out here in the real world. If you need anything just PM, look at my posts as well, you will see that I was in the same situation.
My avatar was: justhuman
when they changed the new forum I lost my old, so I created a new one, the existing.
Do not allow this mind control cult to ruin your life...there is a life after the WT