Thank you for the welcome. I've been a member of another board and lurked here for a while. I do know a few here. Jag, nice explanation of the 90/90. There is a commercial on TV around here about a smoking cessation program. "If you can learn to (drive a car, get dressed, feed yourself) without smoking, you can quit smoking." In addition to the body not processing alcohol "normally" (just as a diabetics body does not process sugar normally), the person has developed physical and psychological habits to support the body's improper reaction and further craving of the drug. Time to overlay those "living to drink" tapes with "living sober" behavior. Practice, practice, practice. (ugh). If you're dedicated to working the inexpensive therapeutic program of Alcoholics Anonymous and ask How many meetings should I attend per week? The answer is "One meeting for each drink you took during a week." In early sobriety, 2 years, and wanted "it", so badly, there were many weeks that I attended 9-15 meetings. 6:30 am, Noon, 5:30 or 7:00 pm. I can tell you, today I have "it": peace. inside. and a general overall sense of happiness. That's my "it".
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by digderidoo ini have posted on here previously about my problems with alcoholism and the fact that i have attended aa meetings so i thought i would start a thread to post where i am at now.. i first attended at the beginning of january and went 7 weeks without a drink, i then had a weekend away and got drunk.
i then went another 7 weeks until my birthday (april 19).
since then i have felt that i could control my drinking within the confines of a local program.. this however hasn't really worked for me, i find that i do not really enjoy going out drinking and trying to pace myself.
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AA..Ding Dong round 2
by digderidoo ini have posted on here previously about my problems with alcoholism and the fact that i have attended aa meetings so i thought i would start a thread to post where i am at now.. i first attended at the beginning of january and went 7 weeks without a drink, i then had a weekend away and got drunk.
i then went another 7 weeks until my birthday (april 19).
since then i have felt that i could control my drinking within the confines of a local program.. this however hasn't really worked for me, i find that i do not really enjoy going out drinking and trying to pace myself.
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Hey Digeri, my drinks of choice were beer and wine, too, because hard liquor just got me drunker faster and I didn't enjoy myself as much. Been alcohol free since 1997 when I had a brief relapse during the death throes of my last marriage. Prior to that night (2 or 3 shots of everclear -- tried to down the bottle cut couldnt) I had 6 years 11 months a 8 days of continuous sobriety, and worked the Program of Alcoholics Annonomous as if my life depended on it -- because it did.
It no longer was a matter of how I felt when I was drinking or not drinking -- the fact for me was I couldn't drink and get drunk , only sick, and I couldn't not drink! I needed to drink!!!
I've never lost a job to alcoholism; I always was well employed. I've never (yet) had a DWI, but deserved 1000 of them. What I lost was my SELF and my health.
AA isnt for everyone. So I'm going to suggest you also look at http://www.rational.org Many have found peace and hope there, too.
If you find yourself back where you're at after working on Rational Recovery, put your head and heart into the AA program. Do 90 in 90, and then do another 90/90. Get a sponsor who will WORK the steps with you. A sponsor is your guide to the AA program of recovery, not a buddy you can wine (pun intended) to.
The fact of alcoholism is 90% of us die of the disease, be it cirrosis, or auto accident, or suicide, or a fall in the kitchen while drunk, or bleeding to death because an alcoholism caused vericose vein in your esophogus ruptured.
Bottom line -- no matter what disease you have, it's YOUR CHOICE what YOU decide to do about it. -
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AA..Ding Dong round 2
by digderidoo ini have posted on here previously about my problems with alcoholism and the fact that i have attended aa meetings so i thought i would start a thread to post where i am at now.. i first attended at the beginning of january and went 7 weeks without a drink, i then had a weekend away and got drunk.
i then went another 7 weeks until my birthday (april 19).
since then i have felt that i could control my drinking within the confines of a local program.. this however hasn't really worked for me, i find that i do not really enjoy going out drinking and trying to pace myself.
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(sorry -- i'm on firefox and I guess the software still doesn't like firefox)
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AA..Ding Dong round 2
by digderidoo ini have posted on here previously about my problems with alcoholism and the fact that i have attended aa meetings so i thought i would start a thread to post where i am at now.. i first attended at the beginning of january and went 7 weeks without a drink, i then had a weekend away and got drunk.
i then went another 7 weeks until my birthday (april 19).
since then i have felt that i could control my drinking within the confines of a local program.. this however hasn't really worked for me, i find that i do not really enjoy going out drinking and trying to pace myself.
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Beda
Hey Digeri, my drinks of choice were beer and wine, too, because hard liquor just got me drunker faster and I didn't enjoy myself as much. Been alcohol free since 1997 when I had a brief relapse during the death throes of my last marriage. Prior to that night (2 or 3 shots of everclear -- tried to down the bottle cut couldnt) I had 6 years 11 months a 8 days of continuous sobriety, and worked the Program of Alcoholics Annonomous as if my life depended on it -- because it did. I no longer was a matter of how I felt when I was drinking or not drinking -- the fact for me was I couldn't drink and get drunk , only sick, and I couldn't not drink! I needed to drink!!! I've never lost a job to alcoholism; I always was well employed. I've never (yet) had a DWI, but deserved 1000 of them. What I lost was my [i]self[/i] and my health. AA isnt for everone. So I'm going to suggest you also look at http://www.rational.org Many have found peace and hope there, too. If you find yourself back where you're at after working on Rational Recovery, put your head and heart into the AA program. Do 90 in 90, and then do another 90/90. Get a sponsor who will WORK the steps with you. A sponsor is your guide to the AA program of recovery, not a buddy you can wine (pun intended) to. The fact of alcoholism is [b]90%[/b] of us die of the disease, be it cirrosis, or auto accident, or suicide, or a fall in the kitchen while drunk, or bleeding to death because an alcoholism caused vericose vein in your esophogus ruptured. Bottom line -- no matter what disease you have, it's YOUR CHOICE what YOU decide to do about it.
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7th Anniversary on JWD
by blondie ini just realized that 5-28 was my 7th anniversary on jwd.
my participation has changed over time and most of what i do is the review each week.
people have come and gone, lots of new names, and some old-timers like me.
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(((( Blondie )))) Thank you for everything you have done in the exJW community, and everything you continue to do -- especially the privilege of being yourself and letting us get to know you a little. Hugs.
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Hello.
by wanderlustguy injust wanted to say hi.
i do check in a lot, but haven't had a lot to say.
sometimes life sends you little reminders that you had better not get to cocky...you don't know sh*t.. i've got the message this time, dammit.
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(((((( WLG )))))) I'm sorry hun -- it sounds like things suck right now. During those times that I just don't wanna, after I've given in to it for a while, I then get my ass up, shower, and take myself to a nice breakfast -- be it 9 am or 4 pm. Then I'll think about something I really want to do that is easily achievable, then set that as a simple goal and do it. That might just be running the car through the carwash and going back home to bed. PM me. Beda