Hi, Bubble.
I didn't begin to realize my relationship with God until I started fading from JW's 5 years ago. I'd been a baptised witness for 14 years but never understood how faithful He had been to me all that time. Witnesses admonish against reading, watching or listening to other opinions about the Bible outside their own publications/speakers, etc. Now, I never even thought about tuning into Christian TV before; but one night, I did...feeling rebelious and evil-minded... lo and behold, it was like that lady-preacher was speaking just to me (a word at the right time?). What she said struck a raw nerve and started turning me around. I underwent my own crisis of conscience; I spent a lot of time reading the Bible, on my knees praying, crying, fearful that I was doing wrong by God, that I'd just fallen prey to Satan's machinations. But the answers that were being revealed to me was that God is not partial (just as Paul said); that no one can possibly know the mind of God (hence JW's and other religions don't have an option being the one and only 'truth'); that God's Truth is written on the heart, not in a JW rule-book; that Jesus had promised to send His "helper" the Holy Spirit to guide and teach God's way. I disappeared from the Kingdom Hall little by little; no one followed. I believe that yes, the Holy Spirit guided me away from JW's...not because they're evil people at the mercy of their Organization, but because it was time for me to grow further in my relationship with Jehovah in a different venue. When you have the helper to guide you, wherever you are is where you need to be at that moment in time. When it's time for you to take another step up, you'll be guided to do so. Keep all things before God and you'll succeed. He's taken very good care of me all these years. God bless.