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  New member, no longer just reader...

  by freemindfade in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  so i joined very recently and began posting and commenting without a formal intro.

  been reading for a while, decided it was time to jump in.

  mentally i am completely cleansed of this thing, but still have to maintain a minimal involvement for spouse and family.

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  Saltheart Foamfollower Yea, its so hard to clap for something that goes against everything your mind believes, I do the golf clap for about 3 seconds. 

  OnTheWayOut I understand, the stress I was feeling going to meetings and feeling so lied to it was seriously giving me major anxiety issues and i am not an anxious person. But one day it just stopped and i felt like the poison was out. Now its just a major irritation, The amount of nonsense you want to look around and laugh like as if right? then you realize everyone around is (or at least pretending) believing this crap. Im gonna try to do a full fade without DAing myself just to still speak to my loved ones, but if for some reason anything i have done that would get me booted, I would not be all that tore up. oops you got me, b-bye..
  
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  New member, no longer just reader...

  by freemindfade in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  so i joined very recently and began posting and commenting without a formal intro.

  been reading for a while, decided it was time to jump in.

  mentally i am completely cleansed of this thing, but still have to maintain a minimal involvement for spouse and family.

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  Oh I remember the SUNK COST FALLACY in school, never had much of an issue with that, the only wisp of anything left in it that I care about is being able to speak to a handful of family members. Thats pretty much it. And I don't do anything to try to show people I agree. I imagine eventually even the occasional meeting attendance will stop, thats just a favor to someone else. Even when I was convinced at first of TTATT I went through a few weeks of somatic stress, even though I was never really convinced 100% it was the truth, I just felt like my mind and body had to go through that purge. Not like I wanted to believe it, or held on to anything, basically I was a closet atheist, but it still needed to pass out of my system. Once gone, i got back to being at peace, I make no shows for anyone in my family or where I attend and I make this clear. If anything can be gained by my still being around it may be to help my spouse courageously see TTATT (this will likely never happen) or others. I had one friend who I helped cross that bridge. Now he speaks to his DF'd brother again and is unafraid to move on with his life. I'm inside the Matrix as it were, but I know about the reality and the Matrix has no hold on me outside of the one last courtesy I give one of its members... My spouse. 
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  New member, no longer just reader...

  by freemindfade in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  so i joined very recently and began posting and commenting without a formal intro.

  been reading for a while, decided it was time to jump in.

  mentally i am completely cleansed of this thing, but still have to maintain a minimal involvement for spouse and family.

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  For as many people are joining on here and so on, I wonder what is really going behind the scenes, how many Dubs have just up and stopped turning in time. For me it started a while ago with doing as little as possible to just get that 2 our mark, to be left alone, then i started not going out, but still just turning in the 2 hours... again to be left alone, then I thought what the hell... and just stopped all of it. I wonder if this will be a big trend in 2015, the decline...
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  New member, no longer just reader...

  by freemindfade in

  1. jw
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  so i joined very recently and began posting and commenting without a formal intro.

  been reading for a while, decided it was time to jump in.

  mentally i am completely cleansed of this thing, but still have to maintain a minimal involvement for spouse and family.

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  Thank you!
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  New member, no longer just reader...

  by freemindfade in

  1. jw
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  so i joined very recently and began posting and commenting without a formal intro.

  been reading for a while, decided it was time to jump in.

  mentally i am completely cleansed of this thing, but still have to maintain a minimal involvement for spouse and family.

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  breakfast of champions

  It must be "new light" 

  lol
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  New member, no longer just reader...

  by freemindfade in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  so i joined very recently and began posting and commenting without a formal intro.

  been reading for a while, decided it was time to jump in.

  mentally i am completely cleansed of this thing, but still have to maintain a minimal involvement for spouse and family.

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  Thank you, yes keep the registration working, I imagine many more will be joining in the next few years 
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  How would they explain this one?

  by StarTrekAngel in

  1. watchtower
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  while there is plenty of pressure for young jws to refrain from every act of premarital sex, self pleasuring or by engaging with others, there isn't a whole lot of advice on the bible regarding this aspect.

  i have just recently began to wonder about it so the only thing i can recall regarding this on the scriptures, is the famous words recorded in 1 cor 7:39 or any other paragraph that speaks against sexual immorality.

  however, i came across deut 21:10. check it out.

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  Sundays Watchtower Study Jan 11th 2015

  by anonread in

  1. watchtower
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  did anyone go to meeting sunday?

  i'm curious about how the 'we must be holy' watchtower went and what the comments were like, especially in regards to disfellowshipped family members.

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  During all the righteous blood comments I leaned over to my spouse and said "you know breast milk has white blood cells in it right?". I paid for that with hostility as usual lol.
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  New member, no longer just reader...

  by freemindfade in

  1. jw
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  so i joined very recently and began posting and commenting without a formal intro.

  been reading for a while, decided it was time to jump in.

  mentally i am completely cleansed of this thing, but still have to maintain a minimal involvement for spouse and family.

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  Yeah, I thought I hated meetings before I woke up, now it's a whole new level. 

  that is hilarious and so true. I feel embarrassed to sit through the talks and WT. The language in the magazines blares mind control "obey without question god us!". And the comments reveal how most feel very educated by their WT and Awake magazines, but educationally and scientifically the amount of inaccurate and outdated statements that are made from the stage and comments is just embarrassing. One of my favorites is how amazing a habitable planet is. Well it turns out that is not so uncommon after all. I wonder how may years before they need to remove that from the outlines. 
  
  
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  New member, no longer just reader...

  by freemindfade in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  so i joined very recently and began posting and commenting without a formal intro.

  been reading for a while, decided it was time to jump in.

  mentally i am completely cleansed of this thing, but still have to maintain a minimal involvement for spouse and family.

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  This is very true, this is why I suppose I live the double life they warn about, even now I refuse to let any part of it steer me. Just faded from irritating people in the mornings, giving talks etc. Just occasionally filling a seat, and trying to live my life outside those three and a half hours or so a week. I test the waters with loved ones to to see how that react to questioning the organization or the bible (for me really the bible busts the whole thing by itself being a book of inaccurate information, biased, barbaric behavior, slavery, atrocities, contradictions, and ancient goat herder logic.) Depending on their reaction I'll back off or continue, but usually back off, I think especially now with the die hards, deep down inside they see all that is going on as strange but continue to try and convince themselves otherwise with the familiar mindless banter of "isn't it so loving that...." "Isn't the society amazing how they...."  No one says these things ever expecting someone to say "no" its not. Because it's not questions, its them saying despite seeing a blue logo on the kingdom hall I must continue talking myself into this. So it's a bit like a dying injured animal, they are more aggressive in this state because they know its starting to look embarrassing. It's falling apart and they need to fight for every last effort to support it.