Welcome jstalin!
Someone on this board made a comment some time ago about how JW’s are in the FOG, meaning that they are controlled by Fear, Obligation, and Guilt! And I suspect that many closeted gays are living a lifestyle that isn’t true to their inner beliefs and emotions. They too are living in the FOG. What a relief it is though not to pretend to be somebody you are not!
Active JW’s live a scripted-life where the dictates of a few people control absolutely everything (including permissible sex acts between married couples). To get out of FOG, JW’s face being expelled from the Congregation, and this often leads to their family and close friends no longer speaking to them! Finally, consider a JW who is a gay, but has to pretend s/he isn’t because of being in the FOG! And yet there have been those in that position that have posted on this board, who continue to struggle with this dilemma.
Therefore, count your blessings that you aren’t coming out of the closet as a gay-JW! I mean this in a kindly way.
Say, on another note, what are you studying in college?
Take care!