I've just recently declared my agnosticism to myself and to one other person in my life. I don't necessarily consider myself an atheist because I believe there very well may be some higher power or non carbon based entities in existence with 'godlike' abilities. Who can say for sure? My question is, do you still find yourself secretly believing in God? By secretly I mean that a part of your brain won't let him go, although the rest of your being thinks that he most likely doesn't exist.
I do consider myself an atheist even though I do also not exclude the existence of some Godlike creatures. I do not belive in the Christian God anymore and do not prat or something, I think that would be silly. I do get some creeps though when I hear the name of Jehovah, but I am sure that is a result of my 30 years in the borg organisation.
Does this feeling ever pass? God-belief has been so instilled within me that it seems impossible to let it go completely. Some may believe that this is God's way of letting me know that he exists, and others may say that this is due to years of brainwashing. Whatever it is, the guilt of rejecting the Judeo/Christian god is there whenever I mention it. I keep thinking, "What if I'm wrong about this and he one day confronts me with it?" I am totally not worried about the confrontation if you put it. There are some reasons 1) if the christian God would exists and allows the world as it is, with all suffering, then would he really cares about what you think. 2) if the God is really the God of the Old Testament, would you even want to worship him.Me NOT! 3) There is so much prove of evolution and this going on a long time. 4) If he really cared, why did he make us like this with all our longing to sins... 5) If he cared what you think he would make things clear. Are road signs written as puzzles? 6) if there would be a God, he would understand. You have enough reasons to believe what you do, and you are honest about it. What more can somebody wish? Or am I more rightious then God? Danny